Hi. It’s me, Donna.

We haven’t talked in a long time (I mean a talk, not a quick electronic message). I like conversation and not having talked in a while, I decided to just pick a couple of topics and get started. In the last few years I have found I enjoy gathering together information and discussing it, even it’s just in writing or just to myself.

Following is a lengthy conversation (as far as electronic communication is concerned). Basically me talking aloud to… well whoever chooses to read it, a commitment of 10 minutes, more or less (I am becoming aware of the fact I like to hear myself talk… hmmm).

Anyway, this could be the start of something interesting. I am not sure how often I will be doing it, how many people will read it, or if anyone will comment. So, let’s just see what happens (fade to new scene).

At one time, I had most of my friends close to me. There was time to talk about what was bothering you and what was bothering me. There was time to celebrate our accomplishments. And time to just spend sitting together, even if it was doing nothing. There was a give and take of energy flow (which I have always loved). Now, not so much. We have all become so busy or scattered to various places (both physical and mental), built new connections and placed the old ones maybe not on the shelf, but more like in a book we open every now and then.

We have all handled our progressions in various ways. Some made scrap books, some took pictures (thank you for digital cameras… at least now when I take pictures, I get to look at them later instead of looking at the rolls of film), some talk about the “good old days”, and gather together every now and then to talk and remember.

For me, those connections are still strong. I dream about you occasionally, wonder how you are, send help through my guardian angel and totems when it seems you might need it. But I haven’t taken the time to have conversation.

So with no further ado, the first topic of conversation (you might want to go to the bathroom and get a drink or snack before we begin), a starting place, gathering place or whatever one might call it (maybe Creation Vibrations… hmm).

Conversation 1:

While lying awake yet again in the middle of the night (at least it is 2 or 3 times a night now and not 4 or 5 times) ruminating about our personal problems a thought came to me. Our physical body has only so much room, and although we can raise our vibrational energy enabling us to hold more energy, at any one time our bodies can only hold so much.

I had been monitoring my thoughts (something I try to do all the time, but catch myself on many occasions not doing it) and found I was thinking things like, “Great! Another monthly bill. I know Dama needs insurance, but I was so focused on getting it for her, I forgot to remember it would have to be paid every month.” Sigh! And, “Summer school, we can’t afford it for Dama! We can’t squeeze any more out of our rock of finances!” Sigh!

Then I had that thought… the one about our bodies and the energy they hold. I realized I was filling the space my body holds with yucky, negative stuff, like muddy water and stony sludge. I was so busy holding thoughts to try to maintain what we had (remain the same) that I was forgetting improvement only comes from change! And how could I see the opportunities coming our way like this? You can’t see very far through dark mud and sludge. It stands to reason that our energy has to be clear and bright to see anything.

I love it when I have great thoughts… Yea! Celebration! And then I remember that it is one thing having a great thought and quite another to fulfill that thought. Yikes, that requires… yes, I’m going to say it… work.

Sigh! And who feels like doing more work? When one feels pressured, fearful, and resentful, the last thing anyone wants to do is work! Thank goodness in lots of those times, I remember something my Mom said her Mom and Dad used to say to her…

Idle hands become the devil’s tools… No, that’s not it.

Time wasted is time lost?… No, no…

Work heals all wounds… Yea that’s the one. No wait, that’s time, not work.

Well, apparently I don’t remember it at all, but what I’m trying to say is that if you’re working on something positive, no matter how small, it makes the negative stuff seem smaller. And, the more effort you put into doing positive stuff, the smaller the negative stuff becomes. Soon you are over the hump and you can start traveling away from negative land into… well, whatever’s next.

Okay, so what to do? What little positive thing can I do? How can I turn away or overcome thoughts like…

That was lucky – No, it wasn’t lucky, it was a situation sent by the Source that I happened to pick up on.

We have to hurry – No, in most cases (besides CPR, fires, and avalanches) you don’t have to hurry.

We don’t have enough money to do that – Again, No, there is enough money for everyone, all we have to do is accept it.

And I know that sometimes the brighter side is hard to remember. Sometimes it seems there is no place to turn. I have found that not having a close exchange of energy makes me feel depleted. Not that I go around taking anyone else’s energy, but I take less time to renew myself when I am not interacting with others. And as always, the less you give, the less you receive.

Of course, these days it can be hard to keep giving. Many of us feel today’s challenges and we translate that into tightening the belt, cutting costs, and denying ourselves luxuries we once enjoyed. We do our best to adjust to the present situation… and feel pressured, fearful, and resentful.

Where do you find support? Or an uplift? I am not really a traditional type church person. Rick enjoys that more than I. We have tried non-traditional churches, but we haven’t found one we like. Rick and I joked we should start a church/gathering place on our own. Then we joked about it again. And suddenly it didn’t seem to be such a crazy idea. But how to get started? Do we throw a party and invite everyone (love it, but then there is the expense and everyone is so busy)? So, how to do it then? What else do we all do? And then another great thought came about (don’t you just love those?). E-mail! Hey, yea, almost all of us have that (I say forgetting the fact that Rick had to drag me kicking and screaming into the internet world – I refused to even pick an e-mail name, hence it being just my name). E-mail… I have lots of your e-addresses and most of you don’t delete me as I come in (thank you). E-mail is not a traditional gathering place, but it does create a “place to meet” so to speak.

So the solution is found. A solution for how to help myself and how to contribute to others all at the same time. I miss writing… I miss talking with all of you… I have been toying with the idea of motivational speaking on a regular basis. I can e-mail conversations to my friends. Most people enjoy talking to me and like to hear my opinions (at least they politely listen). I can certainly benefit from some ideas and reality checks from others. I will be doing something positive for me (writing), something positive for you (reaching out and connecting – was that a phone commercial once?), and improving myself with something kind of akin to motivational speaking… motivational writing (well, maybe that one’s a long stretch).

Now of course one person’s great thought may not be perceived as so great by someone else. Hence the response from you. Do you want to talk (listen, read… whatever) some more or are you of the “Yuck, don’t send me any more” opinion.

So, can we support each other in conversation? Can we fill our e-mails (and hence ourselves) with positive conversation? When it’s dark for one of us, can the rest of us turn on the light? Let me know…

I love you all,

Donna

 

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